Well the last few weeks for me have been frustrating to say the least. I was starting to feel like a failure. I have not been able to stay on point with my training schedule due to work, injury,holidays and just life in general but then as life has it I had a few moments of inspiration that help me “right” my ship if you will. I have shared them below. It reminded me that I was not the only one who struggles.
The first was a post on the Ironman Delaware, Ohio Facebook group that I belong to. It was posted by Laree Lawson and was titled “Breaking Up”.
Breaking – up
So, I have a confession to make. I think that I may have treated my relationship with the Ironman as a fling. I didn’t realize it of course. We were having so much fun! Running at all hours, swimming before dawn, shopping for equipment, we were just enveloped in a rosy glow! Then it happened. I missed a date and had struggles fitting him in on a few other days. Getting together became a frustration. The spark was gone. I chose to do other things for most of a week and after a week or so, went for a full separation. I even contemplated making a complete break.
I argued against working things out – I was completely ashamed of my behavior and my failure – and then the mail brought my IMOH shirts. This relationship is worth it! I don’t want to lose it. I want a strong, healthy and balanced relationship with the Ironman. It is going to take hard work — physically and mentally– mostly on my part. I cannot change him.
I know there will be days when I will hate his guts. But the decision to stay with it will be the overall drive– the reason to get up, to stay late, to push myself to the limit. It is “how can I make it work? Not “am I really going to do this?” Why? Because “I do.”
I’m hoping though that we will find that rosy glow again. I’m dreaming of the strength that I will feel being part of the relationship. I am confident this will work. Confident that we will succeed and grow old together — one workout and one finish line at a time.
The second thing that I came across was a video on Youtube.
I will tell you I needed both to get back on the path that I was on and to me it is funny how life works out. I had to remind myself of my daily mantra. START AGAIN. Maybe you will find some motivation from them.
Until next time and after the holidays I will be back on a regular schedule with posting. Merry Christmas.
N~
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